Clueless factor #2

Im not the type that usually lets stuff like popularity and social status get to me....by now you should have guessed I live the life of a recluse no offense most bloggers are.Today I met a star a bright shinning star...she was beautiful,rich,smart,lucky,optimistic,self confident etc....and I am a girl with a half eaten shrivelled up dosa in my backpack.I felt like I was from a different world from her.What hurts the most was my pride that i couldn't even look her in the eye.My self confidence was just like my dosa shrivelled up! I wanted to change that....I love myself and I want others to see that.Im tired of waiting everyday for my fairy godmother to turn up with a wand.Its time to roll up your sleeves and watch yourself transform.

I forgot 1 crucial fact...this person was right beside me not a planetary star far away but a normal person with afreckled face over emotional attitude and unscreenable mouth!! Nd important of all she was my friend and i failed to see that it took me a month to realise i dont need to catch up with her im already there! I dont quit as simple as that i already c myself no less inferior to her.

Random thoughts

clueless#1
since when did being nice mean u r stereotypically dumb...we all know that nice guys finish last meme started by nigahiga perhaps its not all bullshit and there is some truth to it..the fairytale we read as children goes like sugar and spice with everything nice..i guess its a spell that works only until you are eight.The human mind is ridiculously simple and outstanding in many ways...its simple because we are all designed with one motive to survive and suceed.....and outstanding because we will go to any measure to fulfill it.we were taught be good and good things will happen.is this some kind of nurturing ethics?

Personal diary #1

You have no idea with how much regret and pain I'm writing this....its just I can't hold it in anymore, I can't pretend to be happy, I can't pretend to be nonchalant to the turmoil that is wrecking a havoc inside me.
  OK!  i accept (not evading the self-denial trait i usually have) I'm a loner..people think I'm weird EXTRAORDINARILY  weird..i get bullied and it drains the sanity out of me.

Humans what are they? they seem so scary at times....its like i don't even belong with them Or am i just imagining that I'm an outcast the entire time?

Human#1

              This type are literally the one I would call the BRAINLESS type..then I wouldn't call myself intelligent cause I constantly got bullied by her..the most painful part of my time with her was because I BOUGHT EVERY BIT OF SHIT SHE SOLD ME.Everything to the things I wear to the stuff I eat was constantly critiqued by her.Every time she pointed me out the more i felt hopeless,hurt and miserable.
I didn't want to ruin my life by living every day in such a suffocative daze so i stopped contacting her..i simply severed her off....she was like a tumor growing on me....

Now, after years of not seeing her im beginning to get a better picture..that person was hollowing on the inside.She felt constantly stressed over really stupid things.To put it in plain words,She bullied me to get away from her own nightmares.I, no matter how painfully embarrassing it is to accept am a very simple person and i also have the tendency to put others before me.An introvert and really shy (magnet to assholes) i find this fact UNCHANGEABLE.

I really want to ask her this:
                "Is it really fun? To bully someone just because that person respects your opinion and does a few things to please you,Taking advantage is your pass time aint it Bitch?"

I know,If someone was reading this they'll be like Get a life!,Its not the end of the world its just one friggin person!....
                 But,what would you do?   If it keeps happening over and over and OVER again.....